problems

Hey I know its been over two weeks but their is a reason why this one isn't bi weekly. Truth is I (Ross) have been having major computer issues and a few worries about my, lets call it lifestyle. So Ive been trying to deal with it and come up with ways to change it slightly to fix those problems.

Well I thought id developed an ED from looking at too much IP (internet porn) but that may not be the case at the moment. I just found out via Ann when I was acting strangely I'm sick again. I'm glad it may not be an ED and I plan to cut back on IP and masturbating to prevent an ED. Though I am getting sick of being sick. After I post this I'm taking some meds to knock me on my ass so I get some sleep. If I dont take them I'll get board and want to be active which will probably make things worse for me.

As I said my computers been acting up a lot here recently. It keeps freezing up and throwing me off the internet or saying its gonna turn itself off to prevent a critical error. In short my computers sick too only I dont think its gonna get much better if at all. So knowing that I've decided to take my massive $600 collage fund out of my account and spend what they will give me of it on a new laptop and retire this one to looking up more IP lol. Hey I didn't say I'm quitting on IP just cutting back as I should, all things in moderation after all. It just means I'll need to find more none sexual stuff to read and watch again. Should be easy enough.

I also got to go to my little sisters graduation. She got a couple honors and awards but I wasn't all that enthusiastic as I almost fell asleep threw a few parts of it and I knew no one in it except her. The music they chose to play at it sounded like what id imagine the mad hatter from Alice In Wonderland would listen to if he had an mp3 player. It was so cartoony and lame. Then it got worse when they tried to sing because the quire was all off key and it sounded terrible though the crappy speaker set up probably made that a lot worse. Don't get my wrong I'm proud she graduated and even was told recently shes homecoming queen but still.




Kenny

 On a happier note I got to go to my best friends graduation in my old town. That one was completely different. I'll just start from me getting to town and staying over night at my dad's house then work my way through the graduation. So I got to my dad's place which I didn't really like because I dont have the best relationship with him. Its not bad or anything but its not great ether. I was bought a burger for dinner which was good and I spent the night using his Google blue ray player and playing online. The next morning I used it some more till I got to talking to my BFF and we agreed to meet in town to walk around and talk before her graduation. I got to see her brother and hes changed a lot from last time I saw him. I honestly didn't recognize him. Then we went walking and ended up at her mom's place. Id never been there and which is why we never really went out back in high school before i transferred so I wouldn't have to do community service to graduate. Anyway we hung out a bit then she walked me back to the main rode cuz I have a bad since of direction. On the way I found the janitors keys so when I got back I handed them to my dad to turn in and I wasted the next few hours till graduation. When I got there the place was packed so I had to sit way in the back and I ended up next to her step-dad! I just met the man not even four hours earlier so that was kinda wired. Sometime during graduation I got to talk to my old choir teacher and I found out one of my friends had been arrested. It was great to see him but not good to hear Vick had been put in jail for possession. I thought she knew better than to mess around with that shit. Oh well so she didn't get to walk though she did graduate and so did my other two male friends. Kenny was so happy to see me I got lifted off the ground in a bear hug I never saw coming lol. It was great to see 3 of my closest friends from high school again to send them off into the real world (hell). The music was excellent and in harmony. I didn't fall asleep, the speeches were even better and less boring than at my sisters. I got a few pictures with my dads camera and it was honestly hard to leave after seeing them all again. So there ended their high school careers and they couldn't be happier (honestly who can blame them).



My Best Friend

Oh my last bit of news is in regards to my diet. Its going well. I'm down to 190LB last I checked. I think its a great improvement and I hope by next month to be down to at least 185LB. Well that's all for now. I better get to bed now and get better so till next time and keep reading.

What the hell Hiro? (yaio)

This is that video I mentioned in my last post.

Coming Late

Hey it’s Ross. Okay I know it’s been almost two weeks since my last post. I've been a bit lazy to be honest but I did say I'd make this bi-weekly at worst. So let’s start right off where I left off. A few days went by with the new hellions and I grew past the I don't want anything to do with them phase. Diablo's name got changed to Mason by Ted. Carlos is doing better now. After his one day with five seizures in a row he hasn't had another one since. He wasn't able to eat solid food for like a week after his health problem. Since then I've gotten use to them being around though I still hate the whining they do just because they don’t want to be in the cage or kitchen. It’s really their own fault they aren't allowed on the mattress in the front room or the carpet without being herded to the door to go out. That's what happens when they have accidents. At least in the kitchen on the hard wood it’s easier to clean up.

Well unless you have guessed it or your clairvoyant you haven't known till now I graduated last year and my one blood related sister is graduating in two days. What does this have to do with the past two weeks you ask? Simple my uncle just found out because he never got a card in the mail because we were given the wrong address last year. Well he is super cool and I like him a lot. He’s my father’s brother and a great artist. Not like famous great but still talented though a bit out there. Anyway he sent me and as I'm told my sister our graduation gifts the other day. :) He has wonderful taste or just knows me too well because aside from fifty bucks I got this great necklace that he bought as Zack's Avenue. This thing is so cool and beats the hell out of my father’s one none cash/gift card gift and my grandma’s gift to me. She gave me a glass paperweight made in Scotland. I love the design and though I don't typically go for gold or male jewelry much this one’s an exception. Yes people I wear woman's necklaces a lot because I like them. Aside from my silver chain my mom gave to me and I broke and had to repair I don't own much male jewelry. I mean I have my class ring but that's about it aside from those two necklaces.

On mother’s day I went out with my mom to spend some time with her and we went shopping which was okay. Can't say I like grocery shopping though but I managed to get through it. While we were out I was looking to buy something like the Google TV Blue Ray player because I want to run the internet through my TV. I went to Walmart and picked up what I was told would do the same thing and was in my price budget of fifty sixty five bucks. Needless to say the blonds they put back in electronics who are "Experts" know little or shit about the product they are selling. I was told my new Roku LG would let me run my Facebook and twitter completely and it doesn't. Well I called my father to see if it would do what I wanted so I could return it if it wouldn't but he never called me back. When I got home I was promptly lectured for wanting to share it but not leave it in the front room. Ann and her husband aren't comfortable going into others rooms for long if at all. So I blew it off and hooked it up to find I was lied to about what It could do. I was gonna return it but then I found out it had a lot of my addiction on it (Anime) for free to watch. I was hooked from that point and have added a few things since then to have more fun with it.

My battery came in the mail but it doesn't seem to fit in my computer :( which is upsetting because that means I have to keep using this battery that only holds like a hour and a half long charge if I'm lucky. Oh well I'm gonna have my father take a look at it when I go to stay overnight at his place after my sisters graduation. I have to stay overnight because my BFF is having her graduation the next day and she came to mine plus I think of her kinda like the sister I never had and really want to be there for her. She’s like the sweetest girl I know and I love her to death though I don’t think us trying to be a couple would be best since she’s the only friend I've kept in contact with from high school. It’s not that we both don't want to do it because we both have admitted we want to date but I can’t be there for her because of where I live and moving back to her town isn't what I want to do. She’s like the only girl I've opened up to who hasn't tried to fuck me over in real life. I feel super comfortable near her and she has a way of making me smile without even trying as I've been told. I really feel I can tell her anything and she has no problems with who I am or what I'm into ether. I was really sad when she said she was gonna move to Florida a few months back but now I hear she got a job and changed her mind so she plans to stay in our state. If she had moved out of state I may have taken Ann up on her suggestion and did that job core thing so I could move away from here free and start a new life somewhere else. I’d choose somewhere colder than this if I had a choice though. It’s so damn hot here.

The diet is going really off and on between good and bad. First off I fucked up finding how many calories I can eat a day then I messed up thinking Kool Aid only had thirty.  I'm back on track now though which is good not to mention I am not gaining weight which I like though I'm not losing it very fast ether. I seem to be staying between 203 and 198LB at all times so far. Maybe I should include exercise again to lose more and drink more ice water. I had no problems giving up almost all sugars though which has helped. Oddly enough thou it seems to be working for me though I haven't tried those pants on again to see if they are still tight. I did get new pants though and it seems 38x30s fit me best. (Damn my child bearing hips) I can wear 36s though but they are a bit tight when I sit down, hoping to fix that soon.

I also found out one of my old YouTube videos on my previous account hit over 790 views. I was shocked to say the least since I forgot about the video point blank till I got an email about someone commenting on it. It kinda made me proud I made it and that so many people liked it so much though I do think it was one of my better AMVs.

I'd say I should rap it up for now since that was the highlights for ya and I'm starting to ramble a bit. Hope you liked it and keep reading.

The little Monsters

Okay well last night Ann went out for a while so I had the house to myself. That was great until the bird decided to scream because I helped her move her room around and he hasn't been able to watch T.V in like two or three weeks now. He's pissed about that. Anyway after a while I couldn't take the screaming any more so I (Ross) moved the front room around again (yes Ann lives in the front room and uses my closet for storage. It’s a two bedroom people it’s not very big and I needed a place to stay so we switch bedrooms every so often. I had the front room last) and put a small T.V where the little bastard could see it so he would shut up. Once I put House Season one in he did too.

I was expecting Ann would be mad and she was but she also screwed herself over by getting the little monsters. Apparently her daughter's, boyfriend's new soon to be step dad was giving away some of his pure breed beagle puppies. She got two and one the old owner was pretty sure is gonna die. She's an optimist though so she took it for herself and the mean little runt that when picked on was fucking up the other puppies. So now there are two new members to the house and I have no clue what their names are but who the hell really cares.

Anyway she gets them home and gives them a bath while she has me bring in the dog cage from the back porch. Then she proceeds to get mad because I don’t want to spend time with the pups since one may die and I won’t be in the others life anymore in a few months once we all move out. Also add on that I hate Beagles because I see them as annoying little yappers like poodles and chihuahuas. At least pugs, bull dogs, and even terriers seem to be quiet more. Beagles have the most annoying whine and bark ever and it really drives me up the walls. (Reason why I hate the breed so much) Could just be a bad experience making me detest the whole breed but I really don’t mind. So anyway she thinks I'm being mean by avoiding them and not spending time with them but really I don’t see how that's mean of me.

The Sick one

Well I'm trying to avoid them but damn it, it isn't working. What the hell’s wrong with me? I keep finding myself glancing over at them or letting them out of the cage to wander the house and cause trouble. I think Frank and Ann's pup may get into a turf war if he keeps trying to sniff his ass and licking up his catnip off the floor. So just a little bit ago I went out to pull the weeds by the front door and the sick one grabbed my pant leg and pulled on it. Damn it he’s cute. I'm not paying attention to him to have noticed *turns up nose* So the next door neighbor girl saw them and came over to talk with Ann once she saw them and her mom was a vet so Ann went with both pups to talk to her mom. That's it about this so far so till later. Keep reading and I hope you liked reading up on this.

Mind fucking & possession

Okay well last night I got to see something I have wanted to since I heard about it listening to the Dark Side podcast. I got to see a mind fuck and I can say I honestly laughed my ass off from watching it. I know it'll sound mean that I did later but it was great and I loved witnessing it since no one knew it was coming and it was so spontaneous. 

Okay well here's how it went down. Ann and I were sitting around in the front room when her cell phone goes off. It was her 17 year old daughter calling from the other room. Her T.V was turning itself on and off without her or Frank clicking the remote. So she was all scared and had her mom come in and Ann saw it happen too. I think it just malfunctioned but Stacy (Ann's girl) is convinced her television is possessed. So when it happened with Ann in the room they unplugged the T.V and she started calming down. Well I said it was a malfunction so they had to prove to me it wasn't. So they brought me in and plugged it back in. Nothing happened as we waited there in the dark for it to turn itself on again. Unseen by Stacy Ann picked up the remote and clicked power so Stacy freaked out and ran from the room crying hysterically. Ann thought she was laughing at first so we laughed our asses off and she stopped laughing when she realized her 17 year old was crying her eyes out on her bed and refused to go back and sleep in her room again. She took a few things and took over her mom’s room. Because she was so scared of the T.V after the little prank she tried to unplug every television in the house. Needless to say I wouldn't let her do that aside from her own. She also turned Ann's T.V so it was facing the wall while she sleeps because she claimed it was looking at/watching her. Now Ann has to sleep on the couch because her daughters pissed at her and won’t let her have any of the bed.  Meanwhile I got great entertainment for the night and even though its mean I won’t feel bad that she was mind fucked like that after she’s been a bitch to me all week for no reason.

If it turns out her T.V is haunted though they want to get rid of it so I have agreed to take it to ward off evil spirits (Stacy) from visiting once I get moved or to sell to someone really into paranormal phenomena. Either way I'll win so why let them take a perfectly good T.V out to the street to throw away.

Okay well that's it for now but keep reading. Hope you liked reading this as much as I liked retelling it to you all. I have a sudden need to go watch ghost busters so till next time.

Cartoon Petition

Okay this is an issue I (both of us) feel very strongly about so bear with me on this and if you laugh pleas keep it to yourself. If any of you come to know me or already know me even without seeing this you'll know I'm a cartoon/anime fan in a big way but I'm also a critic (no not officially) of well-drawn cartoon art. When i see a show like adventure time it sickens me. Now before all you fans start with the hate mail hear me out. I am sickened because it looks like it was drawn by a five year old not because I hate the plot. When I see a badly drawn cartoon it pisses me off the laziness of the cartoonists. I still remember how it was five years ago back in the days when Toonami and Miguzi were still around. When cartoons were still held up to a slandered of excellence they were expected to show in the drawing just to stay on the block.

Blue And Finn

Okay here's an example of how bad its gotten. five years ago we had Fosters home for imaginary friends still running. That was one of the poorest cartoons drawn of the day (no offense meant people its just an example) and the simplest person in it was blue. Now we have Adventure time. In adventure time we have the simplest person to draw being Finn. After that the others of fosters were pretty detailed while the others of adventure still look like little kids drew them. I personally hate the concept that instead of making the quality of art go up we are degrading it to a point where we could bring in a nine year old child with no previous experience in cartooning and the kid could draw a better show.  By doing such lazy drawn cartoons the people at Cartoon Network are spitting in the face of real artists and giving children a false impression of what it takes to create good art. This laziness has also caused Cartoon Network to fall behind its sister networks Nickelodeon, and Disney. Of those three they run in third behind Disney who has dropped most cartoons from their block. Nickelodeon has consistently stuck to its standards of what makes a good cartoon and has continued its old classics into a new generation. This has made them vastly successful and with the new spin off of Avatar more success can be seen in the future for their network.

The way to get back on track for Cartoon Network is to raise the bar and make then produce well drawn cartoons again. To do that some shows have to be cut or their time slots be shortened and filled instead with cartoons of the previous generation until Cartoon network can produce New well-made cartoons to bring back its former glory and success. Fortunately enough if Cartoon Network were to bring back Toonami and Miguzi that would bring back a few hundred viewers by itself once the word spread. Finding old cartoons to replace some of the badly drawn new ones and fill the block would be no challenge ether. Then have over forty years’ worth of cartoons to choose from after all, but they should let the viewer’s choose by majority online from a list what they want to see come back. I think the list would have to have every cartoon made from on it from speed buggy to today. Everyone would get fifteen votes and once the time limit to vote was up just take the ones that scored highest. The more shows you put on the block the more variety you have and their for the more diversity you'll get bringing in new and old viewers and increasing ratings. If a different set of shows ran on different days they could get even better amounts of viewers tuning in to watch their favorite shows and that would jump them back up over their competitors. Their are and continue to be great working examples of fans choosing what goes into a program and that has made the show better. One such show is Seth Green's robot chicken on adult swim which has sparked wild popularity. Only difference is in the case of a block they would have more time and could put more shows into it to get just as much if not more success. Okay I'm gonna stop there before I rant any further. Thanks for reading and feel free to leave a comment. Till next time.

Chess applied to real life

Warning: do take everything in this post with a grain of salt and do NOT get offended. Its nothing personal against anybody.
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Hey everyone its Noba. Well I've been up for a bit and I've been doing something dangerous. Yeah I've been thinking again. Its funny sometimes the things in life that will make a person think. Especially if they have a lot on their mind. What I find funnier is what people think of when their mind wonders, all the little things that creep into their thoughts spinning web upon web of new and more bizarre ideas. The old chains of things long since forgotten or cast aside resurrected if only for a moment of contemplation. Its interesting to delve that deep into why we think how we think, and what we think about when our subconscious comes out to play. At least to me it is.

Well I've been thinking if life is all like a game it has to be a game of chess. Every person plays their own game so every person is the king of their own game yet another piece of another game. They choose how the game will be played. Will they scratch and claw their way to victory? If so who are they willing to climb over and why will they kick in the face to get to the top? Or will they seek the guidance of the wise, clear headed bishop?

Ultimately no matter how one plays the game in the game everyone is or can be an expendable piece and the people around you are your pawns to move and manipulate as you see fit to play the game. So our acquaintances are all pawns, we are the kings so far. Now to move on to our best friends, brave and loyal the ones who stick with us and wont give up on us. They will help us fight our battles and wont let us be alone in the fight, they are the knights. After then comes the people who serve as our muses the wise, clear minded bishops always ready to offer inspiration an advice if they be only called on for it. Last but not least we have our partner or closest companion. He or she is the queen and one of our greatest strengths in our arsenal. they are our crutch and our guidance, the one we love/trust the most even more than ourselves in some cases. They are also our greatest weakness so a queen should be chosen with EXTREME care and consideration. A word to the wise don't lean too heavily on your queen. If you do and she turns tarter you have crippled yourself for the fight until a new one may be obtained if in fact a new one may ever be obtained. Self reliance is the only safe rout. Lean on them yes but dont rely solely on them stand up tall because no one else can play the game for you. Were so together and yet so alone in the game its unbearable at times. :( Pick a good queen to guard you who you can trust with your life, who will make your wishes met. That's the best kind of queen and the only one of value, at least in my book.

Wow that took a different rode than I thought it would. Better stop ranting now but oh well, till next time I guess. Hope you enjoyed it or at least took something from it. Thanks to everyone who made it through the whole thing. Didn't mean to really take it that far but that's my musings for ya. Once again thanks for reading.