Home at last

Finally I'm home from my job watching my fathers animals. It was fun but i'm really really happy to be home. I missed this place like crazy while I was gone. Frank missed me a lot too because first thing off he wanted my attention once he found out I was home. Its funny what you miss when your away from home. even the smallest things can make you feel that there's a part of you missing when your gone. Well now that i'm back things feel natural again. Sorry for last weeks lack of a Frank Friday post and a Caturday post. They will be back this Friday or Saturday. Happy nights till they everyone.

The Gateway Drug Effect

Hey everyone Noba here. Yeah its been a while since last time. Hey person in the back making a comment under his breath shut the fuck up, maybe you'd like to share it with the whole class in  the comments section. No didn't think so. Okay now that that's taken care of, (glares at the person from earlier daring them to make another comment) I was thinking earlier while listening to my MP3 player and it brought old memories back up to the surface that i haven't thought about in ages. The one i'm going to share here is probably the one that got me hooked on porn and made me wake up to the fact that I liked bondage. Okay so the event took place in the not too distant past about seven years ago. Back then I was midway through my second year of middle school and had just transferred. I hung out with a small small group of people mostly loners and perverts (yeah i attract them like a damn bug light). Well one who I'll call Kay brought in something that would change my life and shared it with me and a few of his friends. We were all into anime at the time and this was a picture in black and white of some yu-gi-oh! bondage hentai. I was amazed and wanted to see more. Well from then on I was hooked on porn, hentai, and bondage. From there it lead onto BDSM, S&M, and more types of anime. All in all it had a gateway drug effect on me and lead me to my love of BDSM and my fascination with it. I don't know if he had never gotten me hooked weather i would have taken this path and to be honest despite all the crap that came later i'm glad he got me hooked that day. Well I'll wrap this sentimental shit up for now before I start rambling. Till next time happy night all.

P.S: The other one wants you to know there will be no Frank Friday this week but you will still see Frank if you swing by on Saturday because hes going to celebrate Caturday (Rolls eyes at the cheesy anime joke/reference) to make up for it this week.

Missing Frank Friday Expolnation

Okay i'm sorry I missed Frank Friday yesterday. I'm a very superstitious guy so with the End of the world predictions yesterday I wasn't feeling up to making a blog post. As a result I stayed up late waiting it out to see if we would all die. Good news is no such thing happened and were all still here. Bad news is stacking up though. Yesterday Stacy managed to break Ann's car adding to the stack of bills we have here. Good news on that was that unlike her own car Ann's was a quick, easy, cheep fix. More bad news we need a new motor for Stacy's car right after all the repairs and labor we just payed so her car is costing a damn fortune and is preventing us from paying other bills to get moved. This morning we were told Ted put in his two weeks and is looking for a new job if things don't change and that happened due to him being given a lode that will if they are lucky let them be home for five hours on Christmas day. This is pure bull shit and we have NEVER missed a Christmas or had so little under the tree. The gifts don't matter, what matters is he may quit in which case my life stays on pause another six months to a year if we don't relocate(not to mention that he should at least be here on Christmas even if there are no gifts and i do mean for the day not just five hours. This is why I HATE the trucking industry with a passion.) I've been sitting around  for around two years now and i'm getting sick of it. I need to be able to move forward and I cant do that living here. With Ann out helping Ted do his job no one is here to teach me to drive so I cant get a job to change it ether. Its not like we live near friends who will teach me or who I can car poll with or we live in a city so I can get a cab/take a bus. So there you have it. Happy nights till next time all and thanks for listening to me bitch.

The night before

Hey all its Ross and I know you have no clue whats with my title this week. Well here's what its about. Tomorrow I turn 21 years old at long last. I am of mixed feelings about this to be honest. On one hand I can buy whatever I want and go in where ever I want now which is cool. On the other hand though It puts me over the threshold of adulthood and towards a lot more responsibility. Right now I'm feeling a bit odd because my right shoulder blade feels kinda like someones shoving their knuckle into the side of it again. I have had this feeling for a few days now. Its not like really really painful but its not comfortable ether. I'm hoping its just a pulled muscle due to my bad posture, laying in it funny or possibly due to having the flu. That aside I'm back at my dads house so I can be with someone on my birthday which is nice. We are going to have pizza and do gifts. I think it will be fun though Frank is stuck at home until I get home tomorrow night. Aside from that the other bad bit is my grandmother is coming over and there's still a lot of bad blood between the two of us. I'm still mad at her for calling my mother a whore on fathers day when I decided to stay at my mothers place. Well that's all for this time.  Happy nights till next time everyone.

Terminology "Sir" (My Take On It)

Alright i'll explain why its "sir" and not master so you understand. Its in the same boat as collars for a lot of kinky people. I see master as a term you only use on someone who owns you, who you have given yourself to completely and they have excepted you and Sir as more of a generic term for a male dominant who plays with you. I'm not saying that's how it is for everyone or its the only way because it isn't but that's my style. Likewise I don't put any subs in my collar full time without a lot of consideration just as a sub should NEVER just except someones offer to be in their collar without getting to know that Dominant first. I see improper use of the term very much like misusing a honorific when talking to a Japanese person. its a sign of disrespect and I take my roll very seriously. I am very traditional in that way. This has been one of many musings by yours truly Noba and happy nights till next time everyone.

Back Again

Okay so I'm back again. We worked so hard to escape this place yet i'm back. At least Frank's here with me this time. Okay so I'll back up a little and tell you all why i'm here again. As long time readers know I haven't been feeling well and I have come to the conclusion i'm not ready to live alone yet. I can't really stand the isolation back home right now when its just me and frank since I don't have a car or a job. Anyway I've been feeling this pushing pressure on my right side under the ribs and i'm scared I may have hurt my liver during my diet. I was cutting back to 1000 calories a day some days during it which kinda makes it a starvation diet. So I'm here because I want to see a doctor and because I feel safer here. Its so odd that I feel calm here this time. Last time I was here I really wasn't feeling this welcome or calm. Maybe its thanks to frank coming or something but I think I'll be okay. I'm going in to have a few tests run and though i'm scared if I get good news I have decided to change my life for the better. I want to live a long happy life after all so I'm going to start eating better and doing some other things I have been neglecting. Its time I do those things anyway so now all I need is good news. When I see the doctor i'm going over everything this time and after I get the good news I'm NOT using Google to check my symptoms any more. I'm stopping this now because I feel like a drug addict when it comes to Google. Now I'm off to go check out my other accounts. Happy nights till next time. Pleas hope for my health and any who do I really REALLY appreciate it.

Back from the sick

Hey all its me (Ross) i'm back. Okay so I've been sick for like four days now with a reoccurring fever. I wish I was joking I really do but its true. Aside from that I've continued a mission I started a few weeks ago. The mission is to watch all the Bleach stuff on watchcartoononline.com and I will report that its going really well. I'm on episode 174 and the site only has 271 episodes dubbed in English along with two movies. Its been a load of fun but I just got confused. In the part I'm on now the princess just moved in next door. I'm so confused because i have no clew how they got out of the realm of the hollows. I mean is that explained in a movie or something? Pleas you bleach fans tell me. All I know is ichigo saved Orihime then it skipped to the one i'm on now. Its so damn confusing. I thought Rukia died but shes in this one now and can he still hollowfie? I know this was short but hope you liked it. See ya tomorrow for Frank Friday. Happy nights everyone.

New Equipment

Yo all its Noba. I know I've let you all hear from the other one for e bit too long now. So anyway Ross was reading this book the other day about cleaning clutter though I really don't see the point since he really doesn't have much shit to begin with. Anyway the idiot only got through ten pages before he decided to get rid of some stuff. To me that was just stupid as he didn't even end up getting much from doing it. He maybe got two boxes cleared. Somehow this lead to a trend that Ann quickly adopted. He screwed us into having to clear out buckets on the back porch and clear out stuff in the bathroom. Well here's where the story gets interesting. Once the bathroom was cleared Ann didn't need the old plastic shelf thing she had in there so now we have a new place for our equipment and the toy chest will start housing other stuff soonish. However along with the plastic cabinet she gave me a old kid so yey new stuff!!! One problem... Anyone know how to use it? Id heard about a friend learning to use this but if she happens to read this can you do me a favor and post up a link to a video about how to use this stuff.

 

In other news Ross wants you all to know hes lost weight and now only has four pounds to go till the damn BMI says hes the right weight for his size, age and gender. Anyway happy night till my next post everyone.

Lovers embrace

Hey all its Ross. I thought I'd post this old poetry I did back in school up. No you do not have my permission to use it. So yeah that's it and here's the poem. I wrote it a while ago so keep that in mind. Hope you like it and happy nights till next time.

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A touch 

My knees begin to shake 

I long for your passionate embrace 

A kiss 

It leaves a sweet taste in its wake 

Just a little taste 

Like the sweetest thing I could ever taste 

Your arms wrapped around my wast 

The smile upon your face 

Id die for your embrace 

Oh to you my lover lets not let this time go to waste 

These feelings so sweet 

So divine 

These feelings so undefined 

I am so happy to know you are mine 

With this I know I will love you until the end of time

Desire to dream

Hey all its Ross. I thought I'd post this old poetry I did back in school up. No you do not have my permission to use it. So yeah that's it and here's the poem. I wrote it a while ago so keep that in mind. Hope you like it and happy nights till next time.

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Thoughts like fire. 

Burning desire. 

Burning through my head. 

Dreams like water slipping through my hands. 

Flowing never to be caught. 

Details fading like smoke in the wind.

Blowing flowing through my mind. 

Confusion filling every part of me. 

Like an idea to a writer who can't put it to words. 

Can someone save me or will my dreams fly away like the birds.

Lust for something new

Hey all its Ross. I thought I'd post this old poetry I did back in school up. No you do not have my permission to use it. So yeah that's it and here's the poem. I wrote it a while ago so keep that in mind. Hope you like it and happy nights till next time.

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Lust like fire 

Burning desire 

looking for something new 

when I found it I never thought it'd be you 

you give me feelings I've never felt before 

Now that I've got them I just want more 

More of these feelings I've never felt before 

Hands dancing across my skin stoking the fires within 

My heart is yearning 

My sole is burning 

To be without you is to be without air 

I know in my heart Ill never meet another so fare 

This is probably why I can't help but to care 

pursuit of the line

Well since I don't seem to be getting many ideas right now for my story and nothing much has happened I thought I'd post this old poetry I did back in school up. No you do not have my permission to use it. So yeah that's it and here's the poem. I wrote it a while ago so no surprise if it’s not very good. Hope you like it and happy nights till next time.

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Where is the line

that beautiful line

where sanity ends and madness steps in

that invisible gateway between heaven and hell

darkness and light

oh where is that line

oh beautiful line

where is it

past the sea

I waste my time looking for the beautiful line

oh I waste all my time in pursuit of that beautiful line

Doom ride

Hey all its Ross. Well since I don't seem to be getting many ideas right now for my story and nothing much has happened I thought I'd post this old poetry I did back in school up. No you do not have my permission to use it. So yeah that's it and here's the poem. I wrote it a while ago so no surprise if it’s not very good. Hope you like it and happy nights till next time.

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A street corner 

dark and old 

surrounded by the chilly night air 

oh so cold 

The lights grow dim 

I grow pale 

I stand out here night after night without fail 

a car approaches from out of the gloom 

the window rolls down to seal my doom 

into the back of the car I go 

it speeds off into the night 

my intended destination not even I am to know

Lucifer's cry

Hey all its Ross. Well since I don't seem to be getting many ideas right now for my story and nothing much has happened I thought I'd post this old poetry I did back in school up. No you do not have my permission to use it. Only think I can say has happened I forgot to tell you about a week ago the other little monster found a new home with a nice family seeking a dog for their kids. So yeah that's it and here's the poem. oh and it is about satin so every religious person reading who doesn't like it can bite me for feeling bad for the fallen angel who got fucked over by god as far as i'm concerned. Its rare I ever talk about religion at all without being asked about it so consider it a treat. I wrote it a while ago so no surprise if it sucks. Hope you like it and happy nights till next time.

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I am the fallen
hear my cry
this is to the one who can never die
once the most beautiful angel up high
but then he fell from the sky
now he sits on a fiery thrown
down in the hot center of the earth
but he is not alone
his army's are great
his numbers are high
but still he can not defeat the angels that remain on high
so he sits on his thrown but still he can never die

Fuck You Online Its Not a Crime

Okay well today I’m cutting away from the normal all of us who view my blog regularly have grown accustom to. What I plan to type here will possibly be some of the most controversial material I will ever post up. I know many of you will be offended by what I will put here and honestly you are welcome to leave all the hate mail you'd like but your also welcome to leave right now before I get into what it is I have to say. You have been warned.

Okay so an incident last night prompted me to type this up today and it was one that touched me deeply but not in a good way. Me and a friend of mine were chatting online late at night and it must have started around two thirty in the morning but it didn't end till five am. For over two hours my friend cut into me attacking me beliefs. In the paragraphs to come her name will be changed to protect her identity that’s the favor I will grant in this situation. 

Alright let’s get started. I got on after dealing with some business with Ann about moving soon. We were picking a city and trying to get an idea of where to move to. I'm gonna be staying with her and her husband for the year to come after we get the new place so I can save up money to get a place of my own but im jumping off topic now so I’ll get back to it. So I get on and Kate was online because we had planned to meet up for a while. Things started off cool but changed as they always do. It started with her asking about where I stand in politics. I told her the truth I stand on the, I'm a person side of things as an independent. She was cool with that and we proceeded to get into a discussion about the system and about China. 

I don't know if she was drunk, depressed or just paranoid but it was no excuse for what would soon go from a pleasant conversation to her attacking me. Well start with the China bit as it is the shorter of these two. You never know what someone is really like until you have a talk like this which is why I tend to avoid them to the best of my ability. Well I didn't know she would flip out on me so I didn't bother trying to avoid it this time (I wish I had). Once again I jump off topic but really people are so easy to get along with till this shit gets brought up. They are so friendly and that's a benefit of the net, it frees us to say things we would never say to other people and it makes the masks we all wear more convincing. Anyway so she started up with a paranoid sounding statement about how she was surprised China didn't put sleepers in the stuff they send to us and she went from that into a rant about them owning most of America as it is and what sounder a lot like her saying they would take over. I proceeded to tell her that wouldn't happen. Come on really Kate?! China has no reason to screw themselves over by taking over, and they would if they did take over. No offence China but it’s true. When a nation gets too big it often throws that nation into chaos and I had to spend ten minuets pointing this out to her. At first things may be fine but the bigger the territory taken the harder it is to control. I had to point out times that it has happened trout history like Britain in the new world, Napoleon Bonaparte, Julius Caesar, Alexander the Great. I know that reason isn't the only factor in each by the way.

I went on to say it wouldn't benefit China to take over and have to deal with not only more territory to worry about but to gain the US's enemies and problems (financial and otherwise). No why it is true they have a lot of control I can't see a reason for then wanting all those problems when they can just as easily control things without taking over and that leaves them forever blameless for the bull shit we cause. It’s easier to leave the illusion of freedom and control things behind the scenes. That would lead her to promptly tell me I’m wrong and id lead us into out fight about the system by saying that it works kinda. While I know it may not last forever I do know it holds things together for now while we as people grow and learn to make things better. She disagreed that we get better and said we are all wasting our time. I had to point out that nothing we do is a waist. We are paving the way for the next generation to be better than us. I know things don't get better even in one lifetime in most cases and I accept that. Her response was to basically ask me why bother because we put people in power that are fucking idiots.  That led further into this fight about us as a species never getting better and the system. She tried to convince me that there's no point to our existence and that there was no meaning in believing that human kind does get better. In the end I told her to fuck off. I will not give up on us all. I know we get better little by little. I except that the things suck ass and that the system doesn't work well. However it’s the best we have for now.

Everyone who paid attention in government class in this country knows we the people don't really have much say in the leader. People like Kate give up on humanity because they say it’s stupid to see the good and they focus in on all the bad. People like me have faith that is unchanging. I refuse to give up that faith and by the end of our fight it sounded like if we each had a button that would end existence she would push it and I wouldn't. Yes the fight bothers me greatly and while she did have no right to attack me like that it isn't a crime online. That's it for me. See you all tomorrow for Frank Friday. Have a happy night till then.

Wired Crap

Hey its Ross. Okay so shopping in Columbus at four in the morning may not be the best idea. We were there any way to drop Ann's husband at the gray hound station. Well needless to say we were tired , board, and somehow we picked this up. I didn't even know they sold it like that. I had so little sleep because i'd only seven hours sleep in that 48 hours. Well happy nights till next time. Hope you liked it.

Morning Annoyances

Okay Its Noba and no Ross wont be back for a bit if I have my way. Okay so well start off with what happened early this morning. I was asleep and having this really out there kind of dream. For starters I don't remember my dreams often so remembering this one was an attachments in and of itself. Now it was even better because it was a great dream and while most dreams you only have two seances at your disposal this one was different. It was special in the fact that i could see, hear, and feel everything i touched in the dream and even smell and taste a little.

A tribute to SL my favorite online fanfiction author

So why was this dream wired and good you ask? Well I haven't watched or thought about Harry Potter in over a month or two yet in this dream I was staring as Harry. Though I don't remember all the details of how I got to the bit that I remember most vividly I do know it had something to do with a bus taking me all over hell for no reason and then Umbridge was gonna take me to wizerding court for some reason. Now here comes the good part. I clearly remember Ron made no appearance in this dream but after Umbridge said that I want back to wherever I was staying with Hermione. Now I was gonna request we come up with a plan to deal with things however... She had other plans and was scared for me so and I have no clue why she ended up striping for me to have sex with her. As bad as it sounds i'm still a guy and she was too damn cute in just a yellow pair of panties smirking to say no to. Now when I have sex which is all online at the moment im different from most men in that I love to do what would very much qualify as true lesbian sex. For those who need an exponentiation its sex with no need for toys or a cock. Maybe i'm strange as fuck for it but I got very into it which was great for me despite the lack of any kind of BDSM, S&M, or D/s throughout the entire thing and I never got any more undressed than taking off my shirt. Id like to thank my favorite writer for getting me so damn addicted to lesbian sex that i can get off without the need for anything but my hands and mouth. Thank you starvinglunatic of fanfiction, fictionpress, and KP slash haven for providing me with that little treat. Anyway I clearly remember her soft skin and a shit lode of kissing, licking, touching, feeling, groping, along with a little nibbling and fingering. She was wet by the time I was shirtless and craving to explore more of her body with my hands and mouth however...

This is the part where things go from sexy to oh are you fucking kidding me?! I was awakened from my dream by what I think was a low flying jet and Ann says was most likely a car with bad exhaust. I asked what the hell it was and the dog started barking right away which only woke me up more but despite trying to go back to sleep I couldn't get the dream to continue and when i was close my phone alarm went off and even after i shut all three off Ann kept me from the dream by starting to sing a very loud badly sung chorus of froggy went a courtin. Needless to say I was fucking pissed and regretted sleeping on the couch to watch anime on my DVD player which I put in the front room and haven't moved back to my room yet. Anyway it has been like around four or five years since my last dream that I could touch things in and really feel them which was also sexual.

Okay so that covers me waking up and leads us to 12:34am this morning with my father who i'm still rather pissed at texting to ask if I wanna tag along for gaming this Saturday which i'm okay with so I said yes. I can stand him when we game because hes like a different person around his friends and he loosens the fuck up so its like i'm with a stranger which is fine by me but if he mentions my money once I wont speak to him for the rest of the day and coming month. For those reading who don't know my father screwed me out of my 600 dollar collage fund when I decided not to go to collage so he wont let me have a dime unless I do what he wants with the money that wasn't all his and was for MY future.

Well that leads us to where we are now with Ann flipping me off so thank you Ann for the newest bird for my flock. One for you too -flips Ann off sticking my tong out at her- Thanks for reading and do come again. Happy nights till nest time all. See ya...

First time self bondage

Okay yes I (Noba) am back. As the title says I did try self bondage today and late last night though mostly I practiced tying one hand but as I had no skills with self rope bondage before now i'm rather proud of what I did before breakfast today. I cant get into the BDSM community in a physical way yet though I can talk and meet people online so I have to build up my skills some how. Its ether I build them up or I just keep collecting gear I have no clue how to use. Some people collect stamps I collect whips and bondage gear. Anyway thank you to everyone of my 4 friends on fetlife who gave me advice. I wish I could thank you by name but I wont since I haven't gotten permission to do so though it really doesn't effect this post if I cant. You wonderful people know who you are. Now back to what I did this morning fallowing a rather odd book I got for free at a yard sale. Kinda glad I didn't get rid of it now that i'm studying bondage and knots. I tweaked a larks head knot to do the tie above.

Frank Friday The Stages of Bug Hunting

  Hey everyone, I'm back :). It took me a while but I was able to do this post. So without further delay here's Frank. Here are the stages of hunting for bugs as shown below. Content, Excited, Fuck it i'll get it later, And Finally  Fallin Asleep.

Ambition and Daydreaming

Okay hey ladies and gentlemen its Noba. Well I just got back from walking the mutt and taking these pictures. Okay so someones gonna ask why I'm posting these and my reply is "I'm fucking getting to it so wait ten seconds and you'll know." Okay now that that's out of the way let me get right to it. This is a building for sale not far from where i'm staying for now and oh god I cant walk past this thing without daydreaming of buying the fucker.

 Why am I daydreaming of buying this old building you ask? Well look at it and you'll see why. It has so much potential to make a great home with a fucking huge dungeon and its set right in town too so what a more kinky location for some fun. I've been thinking how cool it would be to put some one way mirrors behind the shop windows and fuck a slave girl there while people walk by *smirks* cant get a better location for that kind of mind fucking now can you? Honestly what submissive reading this doesn't think it at least sounds interesting.

So its taken me a week to get these pictures but they are finally up and I really feel good about sharing this fantastic daydream with everyone. I know I can't afford it but its nice to dream. Well I hope I have your imaginations going wild by now with thoughts of owning this yourselves and what you'd do with it. I'm glad you stopped by to read my blog. Hope you liked this post and keep reading. Happy nights till next post everyone.